She is the ex-Pussycat Doll turned X-Factor icon and an inspiration to many. Nicole Scherzinger will draw on her new album to address her eating disorder. Big Fat Lie takes its name from the singer’s tedious fight with bulimia, helping her “create something beautiful from… something that wasn’t once so beautiful,” she explained in an interview with digitalspy.co.uk.
The singer will release Big Fat Lie as her second solo collection on October 20. “This is me finally being revealed. I think we all have our own big fat lies. You know, things aren’t always what they seem. I think people will be able to relate to that,” said the singer.
Scherzinger, who hadn’t initially planned to associate the soundtrack with her bulimia struggle, talked to The Dream, her producer, and elaborated to him personally what she wanted the track to represent: “This is a big part of who I am and what has gotten me here. And what has gotten me to this place of strength”. The pop icon added that she doesn’t find reminiscing about her dark time to be an ordeal anymore, but rather sees it as a form of release and therapy.
Scherzinger, 36, first publicised her long-secret eating disorder in 2012. She described her condition as an “addiction”. She had been suffering from bulimia since around 2004, when she joined the Pussycat Dolls. “I [threw up] every day for, like, years,” she said. “I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life … Every time I had a second to be alone, I was doing something to myself. [People with bulimia] get, like, blisters on [their] hands or scars on [their] hands, and I’d try to hide those. I think the girls could tell.”
Even though it was a sensitive subject for Scherzinger to talk about, she wanted to reach out to others: “I was able to help other people and inspire other people battling any disorders or any diseases themselves.”
“I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world, but I was miserable on the inside,” she reveals in the August issue of Cosmopolitan in the UK “I’m never letting that happen again.” The singer has finally got a hold of “clarity and acceptance” in her life and is making a heart-felt effort to encourage young girls to be comfortable in their skin and get help if they suffer from body issues.
Published in The Express Tribune, October 6th, 2014.
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